Gnome Kat

I feel similarly often, but I think it has started to push me towards growing out of spending so much time online. Lemmy definitely has not filled the same niche reddit did, in some ways it’s better but I am often disappointed what I see here as well. Even things like youtube I have started to watch less lately. It all is just starting to feel like hyper processed slop, like what am I really getting out of this thing I feel attached to?

The only social I really still enjoy lately is mastodon and that’s because it’s possible to make real connections with people there, it’s not about making viral posts that tons of people see. Though clearly I still visit lemmy, I find myself often wondering if it’s worth it.

I feel better consuming less social media, feel healthier. I have read so many books over the last year, just last month I read 16 books though that is an outlier. Not just fiction too, though that is the vast majority, but also pure math books. Smoking a lot less weed, I use to smoke it every day, I was high every day for years and years but now im close to just giving it up completely I think. I have started to exercise and eat better too and I am more willing to just be alone with my thoughts. Sometimes its painful but I think its good for me.

I don’t think it’s all down to just less social media, but it has been helping for sure.

Part of me often feels like if I don’t check social media im like doing something wrong, not participating in the world, like I /need/ to stay informed. But social media isn’t going to save the world, i’m not actually helping anyone or anything by reading and commenting on posts. Its an illusion of participation, a honey pot that just sapps away my time and my mental health and doesn’t give me the things I actually want like real human connection.

Not being able to talk about capitalism in a tech community is like having a fishing community and not being able to talk about how the waters got shit in it.

not gay, not trans… not even vegetarian.

how unfortunate

When you’re accustomed to privilege equality feels like oppression.

I think the definition of consciousness needs to not be solely about abilities or attributes. It needs to account for the active process of consciousness. Like a hair dryer can burn things… but a fire is things burning. Without the active nature its simply not conscious.

Just FYI content warning for Pantheon there is a seriously disturbing gore/kill scene that is animated too well in the first season. Anyone who has seen the show knows what scene I am talking about, I found the scene pretty upsetting and I almost didn’t finish the show. I am still a little upset that the scene is burned in my memory.

I am also always immensely confused how gamers don’t see valve taking 30% of pc sales and not recognize that as greedy shit bag behavior.

We all know when google or apple does it on their app store its bad, or when spotify pays artists pennies its bad, or when actors are striking because of its shady residuals payout from streaming its bad. But when king gaben does it, its fine perfectly ok. Even though game devs are some of the most overworked and underpaid workers in tech. And then people wonder why games suck lately.

Because people think mo money = mo good… its core ideology of capitalism.

but with a core dump you can just load it up and see the state of the process when it crashed…

im a rendering engineer. like GPU programming and engine programming.

How is this sub not meant for me? lmao followed me from the other thread, cringe

This comic makes no sense

except you dont actually say that in the comment i responded to… thats like the definition of being vague

Addressing actual issues by proposing workable solutions like more public transport is actually the only way in the long run to do anything useful. While I agree with the overall sentiment, vaguely gesturing at capitalism is far less actionable and useful and more often than not stifles more useful activism.

Its a common symptom in autism.

Getting mental health conditions properly diagnosed in a clinical environment is absolutely not that simple. I am basing this off of more than a decade of going through the US mental health system at a high level of utilization. I am not saying that OP shouldn’t try to get a professional opinion, it can be valuable but its not the end all be all.

People need to absolutely understand that a lot of the time the doctors are just guessing at what is wrong mental health wise and are subject to a lot of biases. Blind faith in the diagnosis of a dr can lead to years of mistreatment, possibly years of psychoactive drug use that is not actually helpful because you don’t actually have the thing the dr thinks you do. This isn’t hyperbole, it happens quite often. I have heard of countless stories of it happening to other people and has happened to myself included. I am not anti-healthcare or anything, I just recognize that the people working in the industry are human, overworked, and very often don’t have enough time per patent and not enough experience to properly evaluate what is happening inside their head.

Hearing what other people online have to say and self evaluating is absolutely still a valuable thing to do and dismissing op by saying “go to a doctor” is actually anti helpful.

ITT: a lot of undiagnosed sensory issues

Carol of the Bells

goes way too hard for a christmas song

I can’t get past how weirdly horny Niven was… had to stop reading the second ringworld. That being said Asimov gets weirdly horny in the later foundation novels too. Both of them really liked writing in way older men dating way younger women that just comes off as creepy now.