For the equivalent of $402 a month plus having no input into what is the dream job can leave you feeling empty for sure.

I agree sounds awesome until you realize you are at a bullshit job and are not even making headway or money doing what you trained for.

Have you tried the library? It’s definitely location dependent but I’ve found it’s a good way watch obscure things and whenever I don’t want to “find” this online I’ll check there first. I also like that it gives the city a reason to keep the library open by having more people use it.

Try the library.